On hot summer
noons
When school bells
sing their lunchtime tunes
Memories of mine
steal me back
To something
bitter and black
Children singing
ring a rosie things
They have a
melody and a sting
"Your baby
brothers dead,
"He lays upon
a pool of blood"
"He lays
upon a pool of black black blood"
"Your Baby
brothers dead"
I run like mad to
a spot nearly blind
Tiny fingers my
guide
Its there I find
a shine on the road of pain
Something that
would make a strong man insane
Blackness spreads
like water should
It stops me dead the
way a bitter taste could
I bend and stoop
my childs knee
Wondering if this
monster really could be
Fingers point and
tenderly touch
And as my tears
fall like rain, I know the pain will be too much
Blackness that
lifts away sticky red
From the place
where my baby brother had lay dead
Fleet of foot and
carrying fear like cold stone
I race to the
shelter of my home
I find the sun
burns and falls
It blossoms on
the wine bottle tall
The fan turns a
slow smooth and the scented oranges are bright with color
But my soul has turned
gray, not a sign of my mother
And each day
since
A tear escapes my
glimpse
When school bells
sing their lunchtime tunes
Since I found my
brother dead to soon
His black black
blood on my scrubbed raw fingers, still a stain
From that long
long road of pain
Gunner©
This one brings tears to my eyes every time i read it. The imagery, the pain, the guilt that you carry that doesn't belong to you.
ReplyDeleteMy heart burns with this one! That you have the ability to express the depth of your pain so eloquently leaves me speechless...
ReplyDeleteThe agony of this memory is deeply felt on so many levels. It's not often I find no words to express my appreciation for one so gifted..
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